If you could had

If I could had run forever
I would have run
If I could had flown away
I would have flew
If I could had drive
I would have driven away
The moment it takes you away
The feel of you drifting
The world suddenly stops
Nothing matters
That's what you thought
Until reality hits you
You can't go anywhere
Chained and shackled
Only if you could

Meeting Your Love

A soulmate you may call
A girlfriend you may call
A boyfriend you may call
But it's your love
few you may have
Many you may have
It may take a lifetime
It may take a short time
But you will know
The spark in your eyes
The fast pounding of your heart
The dryness of your throat
The feel of natural comfort with your other
The way your lips feel so perfect together
The way how time passes without a feel
The way you wonder how lucky you are to be with them
The way butterflies roam in your stomach
That is when you're in love
That's how you meet your love

How much you want it to end

The pounding
The rush
The annoyance
The anger
Filling you up
You want to be saved from this
Nothing feels good
Only pain
How can you be saved when you didn't save
The heart ache
The breaking sound
You want to leave
But you never gave them a chance to leave
The secret pleas
The silent whimpers
The suddenly dried red
Starting to become the last of you
Bright yellow, orange, and red
Black following the trail
A scream bursts out
Echoing around
Bouncing off the walls
Entering through the walls
Finding ears
A quiet fills in now
Leaving you to realize
How much you wanted it to end

Hold Me Forever (Lavi Lemon for Laviluvr)

Name: Taya Yu
Age: 17
Looks: Up above
Personality: a bit shy buts opens to the people she knows, kind, mean as Kanda when mad
Family: Kanda's little sister 
" means talking * means thinking


~Story Start~
I was sleeping. Dreaming away of him. Lavi. Dreaming we were together, somewhere with candy. Why was candy there, I have No idea but he was there so I wasn't complaining. Together happily. We both lean for a kiss but..Kanda pour cold water on me. Sending him a death glare, I yelled. "What the hell Kanda!!! I was sleeping!!!" "I know. Time to get up" He said. Then he left me. Left me to soak in anger and disappointment. I get up to dress. Walking out to the cafeteria, I pass Komui. "Hello Taya" "Hey Komui-san" "You're looking quite unhappy." "Yea well I have a annoying big brother" Komui laughing said " You will thank him one day." "Until that one day comes I don't think so." Komui laugh walking away. *Komui is strange*
~In Cafeteria~
Finally in the cafeteria I walk to Jeff.  "What can I give you today?" ask Jeff with a smile. "Dangos and curry please" I said shyly. "I'm sorry but we all out on dangos." My jaw dropped. "What happen to them?" "Allen wanted a whole 20 plates full of it-" "We all know that but what about the others?" "Everyone wanted some." " Who was the last person to order some?" I questioned angrily.  Everyone knows I need a least 2 dangos. "Lavi" In that instant all my anger went away. I turn to Lavi only for him to wave his hand. I look back at Jeff. "Heres your curry." "Thanks Jeff." Walking toward Lavi, he had his famous smile. " I grab some dangos for you." "Thanks Lavi" I said giving him a kiss. You see me and Lavi were boyfriend and girlfriend. Taking my right fully owned dangos I shoved one in Kanda's mouth. Kanda sent me glare. "You need to eat something else than soba noddles." "Shut up. I can eat whatever" Kanda replied coldly. Taking the dango out of his mouth. I sigh heavily and ate in peace. "Done!" I shouted happily. "Good because we need you Taya." said someone. I turn around to find Lenalee. "Okay" I said. Jumping up and following after her.
We walk a bit away from the cafeteria til she pinned me against the wall. I gasped at the sudden change. "So, what are you giving Lavi?" Lenalee asked. "What?" I said. "His birthday is tomorrow." She said. Then realization hit me. It was indeed tomorrow and I have yet to find him something. "What should I give him?" "Don't know. That's not my boyfriend." I huffed. "Make sure you give him something." With that she ran off. I sighed. *What could I give him? A new watch? New cologne? A new scarf?* I sigh again. Birthdays was never really a thing for me. I just normally torture my brother. But ever since I came here,there were birthday parties and gifts. I sighed again. Then arms wrapped around my waist. "What's wrong?" He ask. I already knew it was Lavi. I knew his touch, his voice. "Nothing" I lied. "You're lying." he said. I should have known. He was able to see right through me. He turned me around to look into his eyes. Then I lost. I poured everything about forgetting his birthday and now I don't know what to give him. I was then dragged to his room. I struggled barely so I wouldn't hurt him. As soon as we were in his room. His lips were on mine. I gasped allowing his entrance. I kiss back. Wrapping my arms around his neck. His grip tighten on me. I was soon running out of air. Pulling back to breath. His lips only moved on to my neck. "Lavi" I moaned. His lips traveled even further down until he reached my collarbone. Then suck and bite on that spot to mark me. I moan for it was a sweet spot for me. A now purple highly abused spot was free from his mouth only to cover mine again. I pulled back, wanting a explanation. "I love you" was all he said before my shirt and bra was off.
~LEMON ALERT~ LEMON ALERT~ LEMON ALERT~ LEMON ALERT~ LEMON ALERT~
His mouth attach to my left nipple pulling on it, sucking on it. Moans freely escaped my mouth. His right hand brush over my right nipple leaving me to gasp and beg for more. He only pulled away and place me on the bed. My back hitting the familiar comforters. The reach up to kiss him again, never wanting to pull away til again the thing called air was running out. My pants and underwear was gone in a second. I pulled back only to catch a minute's breath before Lavi put one finger into my sweetness. I moan then thrust my hips upward. He quickly added a second one because of my constant pleas. "Lavi" I moan more. He thrust his fingers in and out. I began whimpering. "I need more Lavi. Please, please,....more!" I moaned. Lavi gave me a chaste kiss then put in third. By now I was a mess. I was thrusting onto his hand. Moaning and half screaming in pleasure. Then an annoying but blissful feeling came. My release was coming. Fast. "Lavi....I'm...soon...faster...mmm...cum" I tried to said in a sentence. He only nodded and kiss me. His fingers were moving faster and harder. I was at the brink of it. One more push in but he pulled his fingers out. My whimper was quickly replace with a scream for Lavi enter his tongue into me. His warm, slick, wet tongue was eagerly moving inside me. It didn't take me long to cum after that. Screaming full on of Lavi's name. I panted heavily, feeling his tongue lick up me sweet substance. I felt kisses on my warm skin. Finally reaching my lips, a kiss was place on my lips. Then a tongue enter my willingly open mouth.  I could taste myself on his tongue. Moaning at the taste and the feel of his tongue. I pulled away for I shivered. My eyes open, when did I close my eyes, not quite sure but Lavi tend to have that effect on me. I glanced down to realize that he was still fully clothed. With my pout I said "You're still fully clothed." He only chuckled. "Undress me then." I wasted not time in getting him undressed. *I want to see him, feel him, touch him, kiss him, lick him-OH* I shivered. Lavi kisses my neck. "Are you okay?" He ask. I could only nod. I push him on his naked back. I ran my fingers down his chest. My tongue following right after. I could feel Lavi's shivers. I spot a tent forming in his pants. I smirked then lick his right nipple. "Taya" he moaned. Lavi then squirmed under me. My eyebrow arch but only for a moment for he began unbuckling his pants. I slap his hands away. "No. No. No. Let me do it." I said sliding down his body. I quickly unzip and took off his pants. I grip his cock through his boxer. Lavi whimpered and thrust his hips towards my hand. I only grip tighter on him. Lavi then moan. "T-Taya. p-Please." he whimpered. I smiled and took off his boxers. His cock sprang free from its confinements. I lick his head slowly around, teasing him. I knew Lavi didn't like teasing nor could take a lot. Lavi whimpered again. Pleading for me to take more of him and I did. I took him almost to his base. But couldn't for Lavi was huge. With one hand rubbing what I couldn't take and the other playing with his sacs. That alone was enough to drive him insane. Lavi could only grab the sheets and moan. But I sucked and licked him. Tighten and relaxing my throat when he slipped in or out. Lavi tighten his grip on the sheets. The moan rose more frequently and louder.  I licked and sucked more. Another shiver ran through him and his cock pulsed. My head was then pulled up only to meet his lips. Another makeout sessions came back. My back felt the sheets again. I look up to see Lavi towering over me. "Are you ready?" he asked. I nodded. Lavi spread my legs wide open and push my knees to my shoulder. He then entered me. A scream was let out by me. As soon as he was all the way in to the hilt, he check on me. "Move Lavi" I could only say. Lavi nodded and pulled out only to push in slowly. My head was thrown back with a whimper. "faster...faster..ohhhh....pleasee..faster" I moaned. As soon as I said that another scream was ripped from me. Lavi moved faster and harder. He wrapped his arms around my waist, pushing further in me. I could only moan and scream out in pleasure. Lavi's hands slid from my waist to my hips. Moving my hips to match his thrusts. My hands found the sheets and his hair. I gripped hard. Lavi moaned and started licking my already bruised spot. Hours began flying by. Sweat was dripping from both of us. Air was little between us then lessen more when kissed. My orgasm was coming. "Lavi..Lavi!....Cumming!!" Lavi thrusts sped up if that was even possible. My hands flew to his shoulders, digging into it. "Oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god,oh god." I kept repeating over. Soon I was cumming. "LAVI!!" I screamed his name. My body, my voice, my mind, everything cried out only for Lavi. A few seconds later, Lavi was cumming due to my tightening of my lower regions. I could feel it enter me, leaving me to moan. Lavi collapsed on his arms barely keeping himself up. As we slowly gained breath again. We kissed with love. Lavi rolled onto my side then held me. "Why did you do that?" I ask. "Because I want to show you that I need only you. So hold me forever." he said. "I love you" "I love you too." Another kiss ended the sweet night.

No Other

The smile on my smile was compared to no other
The joy that filled me couldn't be contain
I may be the happiest person alive
May be not but with my love I was
There were no sad times
No argument that kept us away from too long
No other love dared to try to match us
I was floating on cloud nine
He writes me songs of love
When we dance, his arms are always around me.
Coaxing me to be in his arms
I would never get out of those arms.
Those strong, full of muscle arms
We sit under the stars
Talking and holding hands
We sit down at dinner
Eating and laughing
Every time its time to part, sadness fills me
He kisses me with reassurances that I'll see him again
But it was never enough
I could only want more
A little selfishness wasn't too bad
He thought it was rather cute but stop me when it went overbroad
Girls wanted him
Trying to seduce him with every of my fault
But that didn't waver him
He thought of it as cute and normal
He saw every good in me
I saw the good him as well
The way he effectively explain anything to others
The way he smiled when I did anything cute
I could be a little stupid at times
But only he laugh then explain to me
The memories of those came back to me
Now I'm his wife
His lover
His no other

Me

My eyes are small but always see
My ears are big but listens
In height I'm short but I get around
Me feet is small but I can move
My knees are another story
A long painful story
I used to run, jump, climbed, hop, skip
But that all changed
Walking becoming difficult to do
I push through it
Push through the pain
Push through the insecurity
For me and no one else
Becoming nothing but me

Mission

I'm on a job
Make it or break it
Fear is not a material
Quitting is not an option
I'm moving
Its like dancing to me
Some is hard then some is easy
No mercy allow
Straight forwarded
Let nothing stop you
Don't let any personal things come up
Always be careful
One fall, all fall
In a team you stick to it
By your self stick to it
Alert always
Cause your mission is first

Tonight

Tonight nothing is thought about
Everything in is trap
Stars out, no cloud in sight
Under the stars were us
Hands intertwined
When we're together time stops
Our lips touch
Fireworks explode
Wrap in your protective arms
Safety fills me
Our eyes meet
Giving me reassures
Tonight we become one
Tonight I am your wife
Tonight you are my husband
Tonight is us

The Decision

There are many choices I had to come across
Many more in the future
But right now I face a decision
A deadly harmful decision
My heart is one choice
A choice that if ignored result to despair
My stomach is another choice
If ignored heavy prices of pain
Right now I am choosing over ice cream
Weird I know but vanilla and strawberry are good
My heart says strawberry for its my favorite
My stomach says vanilla for soothing
Stuck in a brutal battle you stop me
Allowing me to have both
With a kiss and a smile in your memory
I proceed to eat the delicious sweet treat
One decision down, unknown more to go

Light vs Darkness

In the light you can find the darkness
So why do we trust the light
Holding darkness close to it
Some say the light is secretly with the darkness
Some say the light is protecting us by keeping it close
Yet we don't know
Could the light help us or destroy us
We may never know
But in the end
Everyone trusts the light
Lets hope that the light is true

Love + Desire = Misery

Love is nothing but a silent killer
A slow killing disease
To not get caught, it gives pleasure
Fooling the new victim
When we finally notice, its all over
It spread too far too contain
The pain is overwhelming
Desire is just one step above lust
Want something to obtain
Sometimes nonsexual
Desire cloud your mind
Mind so cloudy that insanity sets in
Insanity harming you and others
The time of pain and blood
Love, desire does nothing but create a potion for
Misery

Time

A ticking sound in my ears
Hands moving in a circle
I stare at the clock
Waiting
Waiting for the change
Wanting
Wanting it to go faster
The evolution will come
I just want to be done with it
But I must wait
In this boring dreaded place
Time winds down
Slowly it winds down

The Moon

The white silver moon
Now whole and shining
Taking over me
Making me undergo a change
The moon is like a clock
Ticking to twelve
My emotions more steadier
Noticing the love of others
Thinking more clearly and farther
Noting that my body is firmer
I feel graceful
I acknowledged my self
Even my hair changing
I became me
With the help of the sparkling moon
The moon change us
The moon changed me for the better

Confuse

Is your head spinning round
Are you mentally insane
What is wrong with you
You are hurting your friends
Do you not want them
Then leave them
Your lover holding you close to him
Now you struggling out of his grip
Shock over his face
He loves you, you love him don't you
You're pushing everything away
Insanity
Confusion
Did they take your mind

A friend now my enemy

At first we were cool
Learning things about each other
Then we learnt more
How some things affect you and me
Now its like another whole side of you
We could barely say things without a fight
Most of your friends now strangers
I should have know
I should have stop while I could
But I believe everyone should have a friend
I wanted to be your friend
Now I'm in too deep
May not be able to get out
For my heart strains me here
Not wanting let this friendship go
But I will get out
I will become a stranger
I will become a blank face
I will become your enemy

Stuck

To make a difference start with the present
The past is nothing to worry about
The future is what you hope for
These wisdom words rang true to me
Right now we are at a stand still
How do we go on in this hate
This is something I'm not sure of
I want to leave you
I want to stay as your friend
I weigh the pros and cons
Finding out the cons had won
So I should leave you
But my heart tugs at me
No it screamed
Right now we are stuck
I can only hope to not be stuck anymore

Who Are You

I'm trying to figure out who you are
Telling me what I should or shouldn't do
I understand that somethings I mustn't touch
But you are crossing the line now
Telling me to what to do
Saying I shouldn't I rush when you did just that
I was angry that you tried to tied me down
Why won't you leave me to be
I am program the way I am
Rushing is the last thing I am
So what should we do
Let you continue that way is unacceptable
So I will end this
End all of your controlling
Allow myself to be free
I will figure out your plan
I will figure out who you are

Waiting

I love you that is true
My heart longs for you
I will wait though
I will not rush these bonds
They will become stronger
Until then I must wait
A long painful wait
Maybe I should stop all together
Though that thought was quickly cast
So what do we do
Friends is easier said then done
I can't stand not to be near you
So I wait
Wait til your heart desire me

Far Away Love

I feel stupid
I feel sick
I feel like a begging dog
Always waiting for his return
I should stop
As real as he is, hes so far
Still both of my heart and mind say no
This is good
I'm enjoying this feeling
You sometimes "yes" or "no"
Even your heart is in confusion
You wonder if we should stay
My heart screams the same
We can't see each other
We should be with another who we can see
But we know we can't
We can't give up
I love you
You love me
So we should stay
Even if we are far way

Obsession

I'm sick indeed
I'm sick because of you
I can't get you out of my head
I WANT you
I NEED you
I'm screaming for you
Please don't turn away
I fear of you leaving me
I can only imagine what you're doing outside of that door
Curse me for loving you
Curse me for only wanting you
Curse me cause I fallen too deep
Is it sad that I sniff your clothes when you're gone
Is it wrong I question every girl even when they're family
I'm going insane
Tell me you love me
Tell me you need me
Tell me there's no one but me
Tell me or it ends tonight
Tonight will be where we will live or die
I 'm prepared so let's go
I love you......
The question is do you love me
In this obsession

Forever Fans

Its really funny to me
The ones on top always break down
If lucky their only separated
You were the best thing
No one would think about hurting you
You were always true no matter what
So why fall now
Why so many is hungry for more
As you leave
You leave with many heart's broken
Is there any guilty feeling
You left us alone
Separated in disaster
 So I could only pray now
For a return
Always keeping faith
Watching far away
Close in the shadows
We will wait till you return
So we're waiting
So you can reclaimed your honor and crown

Distant

We were always together
They were no such thing as space
Now its nothing but space
Careless words hoping to bring something
Unthought actions creating nothing
Just us was fine
Now I just want to plainly leave
Odd numbers I really wasn't fond of
3 is the one I hate the most
How did we lost ourselves
How was distance created
Questions like these ran through my head
Is something wrong with me or you
No its you
So i should leave
Stop being your friend
End all of this
This distance reminds me of being alone
So tell me now
What should we do
We're fading with the distance

Shouting

Pain overcoming me
My mouth opens for nothing
No sound came out not even a squeak
Shock came over me
Then no breath
Struggling to breath
No one around
Alone in the dark
Save me someone
Screaming mentally for nothing
So what should I do
Nothing
Just die as my salvation
But I want to live
But pain stops me
I'm shouting for salvation and life

For you

Distant must love us
Drama made me
Avoiding is your game
I'm sorry for this
Sorry for the love
Sorry for listening to my heart
I will bury it
Burn it even
But don't leave me
In this cold world
Don't hate me
I will only slip deeper into despair
Confusion swallowing me
Why did I fall
Fall in love
Fall for you
If we can't be lovers then friends
Not then nothing
I will leave you alone
Just don't hate me
Don't leave in a bad taste
I'm sorry
Sorry for the hurt and pain you feel
Distance over coming us
Only to show pain

The Death Nightmare

The nightmare that creep on you
Was the worst of all
This one might be our demise
This attacked your heart
Made you weak
It confused your mind
Knowing it was winning
It went on carelessly
Your picture dream pouring blood
Light surrounded you
You die in this nightmare
Nothing more than a blank you

On the edge

Looking down on the ant people
They all scurrying along
Until one finally looked up
Before I knew it
The cops came with screams
There useless talking
I was just sitting there
I wasn't going to jump
The more they plead for me
The more annoyed I got but
The silent aching to jump
But dying wasn't for me
I sat there
Listening to music
Until arms wrapped around me
Relief filled the air but
Annoyance filled me
I wanted to see the view
On the edge of the building

Fear of you

How did we get here
The wind blowing still
Isolating the distant
Your backing was to my face
Turning towards me
Your red deadly eyes
Emotionless, cold, hard eyes
Finally noticing my teared stained face
The wind taking in to close the distant
I take a step back
Not wanting you closer
Love wouldn't separate us
And it really didn't bring us close
You got to me
This is the end

Revenge

The pain swallowed me
Freezing me into one spot
How did I get out
Not exactly sure
I do know that I thirsted for something
Blood of my enemies
I wanted nothing less
Waking into a new beautiful body
Unsure of where these deadly weapons came
I will used them
I had a new face, name, body
I was completely different
This only increase the easiness
The time for pain has come to
Blood shall be shed
They will die of my
Revenge

Determination

You brought me down
There were things I couldn't do
I couldn't do much
Your verbal attacks continued to me
But I stop caring
As soon as I did
You did it again but worse
Then a strange feeling overcame me
The feeling to shock you
The feeling to make you regret those words
This was determination
A feeling that made me continue to be me

Music

Its all i hear
Its my drug
I can't live without it
The one thing that gives me sanity
Finds no fault in me
Where everyone is alike
To come together
Contends my heart
Something that defines me
In the end
I'm just music

Me

My eyes are small but always see
My ears are big but listens
In height I'm short but I get around
Me feet is small but I can move
My knees are another story
A long painful story
I used to run, jump, climbed, hop, skip
But that all changed
Walking becoming difficult to do
I push through it
Push through the pain
Push through the insecurity
For me and no one else
Becoming nothing but me

This Feeling

Should I tell you about the way I feel
Should I write it down to you
Sing it to you
How can I describe this feeling
This feeling that haunts and aches me
The feeling that leaves me in pain
What should I do
Nothing is what I want to do but
My heart beats faster by a mere thought of you
I don't want this
Never had but
You came just to confuse me
i will stop this aching in my heart
For I love you

Get Out

This feeling is not what I want
This pain is becoming unbearable
I want all of this to end
I never wanted to fall ever
You changed that
So simply you change me
I will wake up from this dream
I will open my eyes to reality
Everyone telling me I should or shouldn't
But I make the decision
I will fight the pain
I will slow my beating heart
Take it back from you
Anything else I need to forget about you
I will leave you
Get out of this nightmare

Free

Trap by chains
Tied and bound physically
My spirit roaming around
My mind dreaming
Thinking about water
How it flows places
Small and wide
Also the wind I thought about
How it can go anywhere
Blowing soft or hard
There was a time when I felt the chains lift
Heavy rusted chains were gone
I walk on
Wounds heal blood dried
I am free

The Way I Feel

This strange pleasure I feel
That started once in my heart to everywhere
The moment your hand touch mine
My heart beat so fast I was lost of breath
The feel of your lips on mine made me faint
The graceful , joyous smile on my face was made by you
Thinking of you makes my heart flutter
When you are gone, I feel sadness
When you come around, happiness fill me
I feel alive
This is the way I feel
Love is what I feel

Light

I know the world isn't full of sunshine
Nor colorful rainbows but I believe
That there is light
Light that saves you from stress
So where is my light
Clouded by hate and despair
I need the light to save me
I am in need of help
Maybe I'm not meant to be saved
No sweet moment for me
I don't believe so
But where is the angel
The knight on the horse
The pot of gold
No where to be found
I must save myself
For my own light

Fall

The time of the preparing
Preparing for the cold
Preparing for long naps
The colors fade only left with green, red, yellow, and orange
The leaves fall to the ground
Striping the tree
The kids laughter dying down
Fun in the leaves but
Bored in school
Animals rushing for last minute things
This is fall

Summer

The time for heat
The time where water is needed
Swimming pools open and in style
Bathing suits all around
Laughter hitting us all the time
the time of single's nights
The wind blowing to cool us down
The sun love us so it stay out longer
Giving us vitamin D and love
Kids having time off school
Stay up late and sleeping in
All having fun
This is summer

Why do we play this game called love

Why do we do it?
Why do we all sign up to this game?
Some are first timers
Some been here for years
Each knowing whats going to happen
Yet they all keep going
Its the same game
Same rules
But different players
Some beat it and that is few
When you win, you get your love
When you lose, you are left in pain
Yet they get back up to play again
Why do we do it?
Why do we sign up for this game?
We won't know but I guess
We are just victims in love

Cry On

Stop your crying
They always tell me
There is no use of crying
In the end
You are still hurt
So wipe your tears away
Blow out your nose
And get up but
He stop me
He told me its okay for me to cry
Let out all my tears
Of course it doesn't change anything but
You let the sadness go
Instead of letting it consume you
So cry on and on
Until you feel good
I will be here to hold you
So I did

Love

Its a feeling
A feeling that can come unexpectedly
A feeling that can come expectedly
A feeling that makes your heart race
A feeling that makes your stomach turn
Its a emotional feeling

Its a feeling that drives you into insanity
A feeling that makes you lose control
A feeling that makes you fight for nothing
A feeling that gives false hood
Its a feeling that harms

Its a feeling that cures you
A feeling that makes you happy
A feeling that makes you want to fly
A feeling that attracts peace
Its a feeling that helps

No matter what is behind this feeling
Its for you and your love
So enjoy it while it lasts

Spring

The time the dead rise to life
The time the sleepy heads awake
The time that everything is at its peak
Flowers bloom back into their pretty colors
Red, blue, yellow, purple, pink, orange, and more
The tree's leaves return with evergreen
The cherry blossom bloom with soft pink
Only in this season will it bloom
The birds chirping sweetly in the morning
Sweet wind blowing softly
The heat in the perfect condition
This is spring

Winter

The time when sleep takes over
The living beings becomes dead
The quiet sound takes over the noise
The world of colors now white
The tree's leaves gone
The tree homing sleeping animals
Ice appearing
Far away is little sounds
The children putting on winter coats
Sliding down hills
Making snow angels
Having snow ball fights
Going home for hot cocoa
Trucks driving the snow away from streets
The people shoveling snow from their cars and walkways
This is winter

The Nightmare Dream

How were we so close?
And yet so far
How did we lose?
And yet we won every fight
Or at least you didn't
I fought for us
Did you fight?
Why didn't you?
What lame reason do you have for me
Why am I the only one crying?
Maybe it was nothing at all
Or I was just a fool
Or you are hiding behind a mask
This nightmare will end for me
This dream will end for you
So I say goodbye
And you say hello
But I was already gone
Now you were left to ponder...........

The Truth and Lie

The tear that welled up in my eye was a mistake
Another tear I wasted on you and won't get back
You drifted away and I chased after you
Only to be lost and hurt
But I got up and found my way back home
I saw you then
With her and another her
More and more girls around you
But I didn't care anymore
I knew by now you were leaving
That was just fine with me
I stop caring and I walk
Walking away from you
A blood trail behind me
Now my wounds had heal
I forgot about you but
You came back
Why did you come back?
Only to have my friend and teammate in you arms
I must have miss something
Why are you still here?
Do you want to hurt me?
Why would you do it and how?
There is nothing left of me and you
Only blank memories and wasted salty tears
There can't be any apology to explain this
So I leave you behind this time
As my love comes around and hold me around my waist
Passing you a 'Shame on you' look
You left me but I left you and became stronger
So I leave you with these partings words
'Feel the shame and sadness come to you. Feel the pain as I did. But know I thank you for you made me
Stronger'

A Smile

A smile is a sign of happiness

The day

The hours

The minutes

The seconds

The moments 

Are good chances of a smile to occur

A smile is a defense against sadness

The second tears well in your eyes

Is the second someone comes to wipe it away

Then leave you with a smile

A smile is a hollow shell

False people all the time

Divert the truth of pain

Nothing in it or come out of it

A smile could be a lot of meanings but one for sure is that no matter what.

A smile will be on someone's face for whatever meaning behind it

So smile as the pain, tears, and happiness consume us